Two months ago I found myself sitting on a stool, in front of 20 women and they were all listening to me. Shit.
To be honest, I was nervous. My hands were shaking like I’d had too much caffeine and I had hummingbirds going at a zillion mph in my belly-- my nerves were definitely bigger than butterflies. I was about to present through our first Dream Chasers series about setting goals in a tangible way for the new year.
Sure, I had lectured and presented in front of larger groups, but had I ever presented something so close to my heart? Definitely not. I was sitting in a store that I’ve dreamed of working with, presenting curriculum that I designed, and helping women set goals to empower themselves. My dreams are literally coming true.
I often ask myself, how is it possible that I get to live this life?!? Why me? There are a lot of other factors-- i.e. I have privilege, it’s not something I can nor want to ignore; I’m a white, heterosexual, middle class woman with a college degree-- it’s important to acknowledge these because they have certainly played a part in the way my life has formed and the opportunities I’ve experienced.
The other part of it is that I’ve worked my ass off. I’ve taken risks, I’ve believed in myself, I’ve realized that I have the potential to live an extraordinary life. I’ve made the conscious decision to focus on gratitude in my life, to exercise regularly, to take care of myself, and to realize that we are defined, by how we spend our time (Thanks Oprah!). So, when push comes to shove, I don’t want to make decisions out of fear, I want to spend my time doing things that I love, with people who inspire me.
As I sat there, my nerves went from shakey, to completely comfortable. I knew this was exactly where I want to be, and exactly what I want to be doing. It’s not very often that we get opportunities that are so in tune with our values, and that we have the presence to acknowledge them.
In this workshop we got to lead women through defining their goals, how they want to feel, how to make them tangible, and of course, devour some delicious food (Thanks Revolution Roasters!). We ended it by sending ourselves snail mail-- who doesn’t love mail!, making dream catchers (not my strong suite btw) and even DIY leather keychains.
So, Boss Babe. When push comes to shove, how do you want to spend YOUR life?